From Joe Dispenza Coach to World Leader in Shadow Work

Nearly 20 years ago, I had what I now call my first awakening. Like so many seekers, I went down the rabbit hole of The Secret, positive thinking, Tony Robbins seminars, Abraham Hicks teachings, and every New Thought leader I could get my hands on. I thought if I could just master my mind, I’d finally feel free.

And then I discovered Joe Dispenza.

At the time, it felt like the answer. His work seemed like the solution to the stuckness I’d felt in all those other approaches. I threw myself in head first, practicing relentlessly.

I meditated for hours every day.

Before long, I was invited to become part of his leadership team — one of Joe Dispenza’s coaches, serving as a team leader at his retreats around the world.

It was an honour… but it was also where I started to notice cracks in the façade.

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What I Saw as a Joe Dispenza Coach

Being behind the curtain gave me a front-row seat. And what I saw was both inspiring and heartbreaking:

• People having breakthroughs, but also relapsing.

• Emotional highs followed by crushing lows.

• Healings that seemed miraculous — until symptoms quietly returned.

• Participants leaving retreats feeling like failures if they hadn’t “manifested” what they wanted.

Many believed that if they didn’t achieve results, it was because they weren’t good enough. And that nagged at me. Something seemed… off.

At the end of the very first retreat I ever attended, Joe even threatened that if we ever taught his work outside of his organisation — work he’d himself taken directly from his 25 years with Ramtha — he’d “send the sharks after us.” At the time, I laughed. But later, it made me think: was this really about healing, or about protecting a brand?

I can now see he was projecting. 

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The Turning Point: Loss, Grief, and Truth

In 2019, my brother died in a tragic way. That moment cracked me open. I began to see that the truth of healing isn’t about chasing higher highs or bypassing pain.

Then COVID hit. I made the decision to step away from Joe’s organisation entirely.

And that’s when the deeper awakening arrived:

It’s not about “fixing” ourselves.

It’s not about chasing light while suppressing darkness.

It’s not about proving we’re worthy through how long we meditate, how elevated we feel, or how much we manifest.

We are already good enough. We just don’t fucking know it.

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From Joe Dispenza Coach to Shadow Work Leader

That realisation shifted everything. I understood that true transformation doesn’t come from bypassing the parts of ourselves we don’t like. It comes from loving those parts unconditionally.

That’s what shadow work is.

It’s not about eliminating what’s “wrong” with us. It’s about integrating the disowned pieces, collapsing the triggers, and reclaiming wholeness.

Today, I no longer call myself a Joe Dispenza coach — I’m a Shadow Work Leader. My mission is to help people break free from the emotional roller coaster, to stop outsourcing their worthiness, and to discover the power that was inside them all along.

Because the truth is:

Healing isn’t about becoming good enough.

It’s about remembering that you already are.