Discover why attending and even facilitating Joe Dispenza’s retreats didn’t lead to true healing for me—and what finally did.
I used to be all in.
Joe Dispenza’s work promised transformation, coherence, and quantum leaps in health, wealth, and happiness. I studied it. I lived it. I even coached it—facilitating weeklong retreats where hundreds gathered to rewire their brains and manifest miracles.
And for a while, it worked… kind of.
People had mystical moments. Tears flowed. Hearts opened. I witnessed some profound shifts.
But deep inside, something still didn’t feel whole—in them, and in me.
Even while leading meditations and teaching neuroscience-backed transformation, my body was giving me feedback I couldn’t ignore. Symptoms, burnout, emotional triggers that wouldn’t shift, patterns that kept repeating. And eventually, I had to admit the truth:
I wasn’t healed.
Not fully.
Not deeply.
Not sustainably.
And I wasn’t the only one.
The Missing Piece: Why Brain Coherence Isn’t Enough
Joe Dispenza’s model focuses on brainwave states, energy centers, and visualizing new realities. It’s compelling. It’s scientific. It scratches that spiritual-nerd itch.
But it bypasses the shadow.
The unconscious.
The emotional debris stored in the body.
The trauma loops wired into the nervous system and buried deep in cellular memory.
You can become conscious of what you don’t want to be.
You can recognize your triggers, your patterns, your resistance.
But until you love and integrate that part of you, it ain’t going anywhere.
You can’t meditate your way out of a suppressed emotion.
You can’t visualize away the pain you haven’t faced.
You can’t override trauma with brain coherence alone.
That’s not healing. That’s bypassing.
What Finally Healed Me (And My Clients)
I had to go deeper.
Into the shadow.
Into the trauma.
Into the parts of me I didn’t want to face—the ones no affirmation could fix.
What I discovered was that true transformation doesn’t come from escaping the darkness.
It comes from integrating it.
Healing, real healing, happens when you collapse emotional charge at the root.
When you stop seeking peak states and start loving your pain.
When you stop chasing light and start becoming whole.
That’s the work I do now—blending neuroscience, psychosomatics, shadow work, and purpose activation. It’s not always sexy. It’s not always euphoric.
But it actually works.
If You’ve Tried It All and Still Feel Stuck…
You’re not broken.
You’re not failing.
You’re just running someone else’s model that wasn’t built for your full integration.
I still respect Joe’s work—it opened the door.
But I had to walk through it, out the back, and down into the basement of my being to find my wholeness. That’s where the real gold was.
If you’re ready for deep healing—beyond peak states and spiritual highs—this is your invitation.
To go beneath the surface.
To stop chasing healing and start embodying it.
Because you don’t need another meditation.
You need to meet the parts of you you’ve been avoiding.
That’s where freedom lives.
If you’re done with half-healed wounds and spiritual fluff—this is the work. Join Alchemy or apply for 1:1. No more circles. Just results.
